Look directly into the mind of someone struggling with severe depression and thoughts of suicide.
Collection of poems and writings straight out of the darkness that consumed me.
Pure. Raw. Nothing held back. A first-hand tour of my depression.
I am sharing these intimate thoughts to show that:
- it is ok to talk about depression and suicide
- you are not alone
- help is available
- it gets better
It is time to end the stigma surrounding depression, suicide, and mental illnesses.
Contains explicit and graphic language.
I will donate half of all proceeds from this book to the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.
I did not go into this book with any illusions. I knew that it was not going to be the proverbial walk in the park, so the dark material was not a surprise at all. From a poetic standpoint, this may not be literary perfection. The stanzas are wild and unkempt, but there is a reason for this in my opinion; it quite well reflects the state of mind the author was in at this point of his life.
I found this book to be important for two main reasons. First of all, the author took the time to introduce these poems by mentioning the suicide rate that the world is currently dealing with, and make his introduction a way to offer help to those who are also suffering with depression and suicidal thoughts. I felt that he had really learned something from his experiences and was able to come from a place of knowledge when extending a plea for others to get help.
The second reason I think this book is worth the time to read and is important, is because it is pure honesty. You can see the rise and fall of the author’s moods reflected within his writing, and as he did not reorganise but rather kept the poems in their original order, you are able to see the roller coaster of thoughts, feelings and emotions that he went through during this period of his life as they occurred to him then.
For anyone who is suffering from similar issues or has been through a depression of some magnitude in the past, this book will seem like a familiar home. When you are standing on the edge and you know complete darkness–the soul sucking type of depression where hope is lost, normal life seems gone forever and you are not sure if you will ever–can ever come back from it, then you know what this author has been through. His writing reflects this perfectly.
I was particularly taken with a couple of the poems: “Sunday Thoughts” and “House on the Hill.” My favourite passage from this book was: “Maybe one day someone will fill the house with love, Maybe one day the house will be a home again.” This showed the hope for the future that the book is ended with and matched well with the message at the beginning.
I would recommend this book to others who have dealt with depression, are currently dealing with it, or know someone else who is. Reading through this may help them realise that they are not alone and there is help out there.